I remind myself of a time when I was surrounded by darkness and entangled with chaos and confusion. Death was wrapping me up with tentacles that reached to the depths of hell…….but, God!

God, in His great mercy heard my cry for help and lifted me from the pit of hell setting me upon a warm rock and held me until I was able to safely carry on in my journey.

In my own strength I was weak, weary, and unable to live the life He had called me to, but I found new strength. I found a strength beyond myself. I had become ensnared by an enemy. The enemy was my strongest enemy of all. Myself.

I found myself battling through the thicket of all I had become because I believed lies about myself. Who would save me from the wreckage and wretched man I had become? Who would show me who I truly am and who I was meant to be? Where is a reflection and reference of who I was created to be and what I was supposed to look like? …….But, God!

I cried out to God in my bondage- “ God, if you don’t save me there is no hope for me!”

Where are the hammer and nails for my flesh? Who will give me the strength to carry my cross? Lead me in the way of everlasting peace and teach me to lose my life so I can find it and give you all the glory that you alone are worthy of!

My life is a worm. A caterpillar longing to morph into something much more beautiful in order to display your majestic beauty. A transformative experience and display of your glorious power and ability to make me much more than I am so that I can declare the goodness of my God.

The earth awaits us! The labor pains grow stronger longing for the kairos moment when sons and daughters of God are revealed and the true church shines like the morning sun light, piercing the darkness. But, our battle is more fleshy at the moment because we don’t see the real battle that wages war in the heavens for the sons and daughters of our future. We’re allowing an enemy of passivity and lukewarm hearts rob us of your power and true glory.

Who will save us from ourselves? ……but, God!

God, you alone can save us! You alone can save me from myself! You and only you can revive us!

I know you hear the bleating of sheep. The ones bound in darkness and are crying in their suffering because we reserve the best for ourselves. We give you 90% and keep 10% to ourselves. It’s that 10% held back that says- “ but, my time is precious! Their suffering is not my fault. It’s not my responsibility. I’m really very busy, Lord! ”

“Lord” can I surrender partially and still call that?

Lord, don’t let me regress when you need me to progress in your ways. Don’t let me go down to the pit again and become complacent with the life you have given me. Fan the flame of my heart so that I can burn for you. I’m frail and futile if left to myself. I need your vision, your strength, your purpose alive in my heart to carry out the mission that have me on. I need you to fill me again with Your Spirit!

When I pick my life back up quickly convict me so I will quickly die to myself again that I might gain the crown of life that only you can give me. My heart longs for you like the deer pants for streams of water. You are the living water that satisfies my soul and no other can quench my thirst. It’s all temporary but you are not.

I trust you hear my prayers. I trust that today is a new day filled with new opportunities, possibilities, strength and joy. You are my strength and my shield. The joy of my life! My victory comes from you! It is you who saves me from the wretched man that I am and gives me new life! It’s why I put my hope in you.

You alone are worthy. You are the lifter and glory of my head. You are my strength and my song. The Way, the truth, the life! I can’t but you can! ……but God 💯🙌🏻 you always come through.